Just Because

hold on to those who holds on you.

because those are the ones that really matter.

2012 - stop chasing, start wishing, keep it the way it supposed to be

back in Jan 2011, my new year resolution is to be all brand new. all i can say is that,

1. i got a new handbag (yeay)
2. new goal (i forgot what the goal was) but i did achieve one goal this year - one more certificate secured!
3. i traveled half way across the globe (US and Canada)

but the downside is that, i lose few things along the way.

1. July was not good to me at all. at all. I lose you.
2. i can't think of anything else that i lose, maybe because losing you was so hard, that other things seems to be less of a burden.

it is suffice to say that we are gambling our way through the future. we never know the definite outcome, (unless you do some kind of card reading), what will happen, where are you going to be next minute, when will you cry, what will make you happy, all of that, makes life interesting and terrifying at the same time.

You Lose Some, You Gain Some

its all about choices, and your willingness to accept it with open hands.

time will heal everything, but when is the right time? we don't know :)

it's easier said than done, they said.

I wish nothing but the best, for you too.

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice

We can pack up our old dreams and old lives,.

                                                          Always; Bon Jovi

i want to be strong, just like you.

but the truth is, i can't.
well, i guess time will heal everything.
just pray. i'll pray. will you pray for me, too?

just like old times.

Sometimes love comes around, and it knock you down,

-just get back up, when it knock you down.

(Keri Hilson, 2009)

all i want to say is,

we can't always have what we want.

cheers!

Emotional

women, we can blame it on the hormones.

but what about men? emotional? they blame it on the women.

I overreact when i lose things.

p/s: going back to kelantan on 26th. might be going for perhentian for a day. just to clear my mind off. its just a plan. or maybe just chillax kat kampung. we'll see.

Day 3

- i had scrambled eggs for bfast 3 days in a row.

- the fact that when i get out of my room, and i can't see my housemates in the next room, is boring.

- luckily, the weather is goooood! not too cold. just a lil' breeze. thats enough! ( i would be good if there's a snow for only a day :P)

- they have kitchen in my suite but i didn't bring any sardin or anything to cook. even maggi! tsk!

- we conquered downtown Toronto in half day :) thanks to our mighty legs.

- planning to go Niagara Falls on Thursday. yet to confirm. maybe tomorrow.

- you are not close-by. :(

- my family is on their way back to Kelantan now.

- news after news after news. bring it on!

- really looking forward for that one news. hihihihii. can't wait to see that.

Day 1

- Flight to Hongkong at 910. change flight last minute from Cathay Pacific to Malaysia Airlines.

- had a really great time in the flight for 4 hours. arrive in Hongkong at 1pm, Saturday.

- waiting for Viji as she took Cathay Pacific and the flight arrives 20minutes later.

- flight to Toronto at 430. 15 hours flight @_@. sakit badan guwe.

- touched down at Toronto International Airport on 20.30 local time, Saturday (830 am Msia Time, Sunday)

- took a cab to Marriot Residence Inn. they charged us 70 CAD dollar = 230RM. damn it!

- rest. ZZzZzZZzZ.

its all about Liam, and a little bit of Teddy

90210 series marathon.

thats how i spent my weekend!

i'm still learning.

Basic guide to live our everyday's live. Note to self.

The tongue is a great endowment from Allah; though small in size; its crime is enormous.

(Imam Abu Hamid al-Ghazali)

"Bersangka baiklah kita sesama insan,jauhkan sifat hasad dan dengki kerana itulah salah punca putusnya silaturrahim di kalangan Muslimin."

Janganlah sekali kali menderhaka kepada kedua ibu bapa,segala amalan tidak akan diterima oleh Allah swt. Hormatilah dan sayangilah ibu bapa kita.

(taken from Sham's FB)

Jaga2 cik Salmah.

hanging by a thread,

literally.

people WILL believe, whatever they WANT to believe.

fantasy: live happily ever after :)

reality: just gone like a wind.

fantasy: 500 ringgit increment :)

reality: nahhhh, not gonna happen.

fantasy: sitting by beach, sipping pina colada.

reality: metropolitan city with all the sky scrapper.

fantasy: Que will be sitting next to me all the time

reality: she's going away, soon. very soon.

sometimes we don't really know what we want, so let it be, they way it supposed to be.

its been a while since i write here, due to overwhelming tasks. hahaha yea right.

the thing is, i malas. tu je sebenarnya, takdela byk kerja sgt. just admit yang awak tu malas. hahaha. see, i admit it. not that hard. sometimes, its easier to admit our fault/doings rather that pusing2 cari dalih, kan? just tell, yea im wrong, im sorry. its my fault, or maybe, 'ak ah, i yang buat kerja tu, hebat kan i?' hahahahahaha.

im going for a vacation in few weeks, can't wait for it. its not that far, but its a new place! new place here means the place that i've never been to before. usually our fav vacation spot is perhentian. nice beach, people and ambiance. went to perhentian every year for vacation since our first time there with YES, back in 2007.

i dont know what is the point here. so, toodles!

another random post

1- really hate that time of the month. i feel like throwing up and slept the whole day yesterday. but i hv to attend training, so yeah, no sleep until 10pm. thank you minyak yu yee cap limau. reduce the pain a lil bit.

2- career fair and pc fair today. from mid to kg. baru, took lrt to KL convec. penat wehhh. orang ramai gila nk mam***. rasa mcm nk patah pinggang berjalan. tambah2 ngn bau2 tak menyenangkan. omg. beli deodorant please?

3- be stronger. please.

4- i miss you. :D

5- my dad has been discharge from hosp 3 days after the operation. thank god. alhamdulillah.

6- i bought another external HDD. pink in colour yaw. hahahaha. its samsung btw. oh plus headphone. 19.90RM. :D

7- overall, i hate this week. bye

totally random

#1.

right before i left office this morning, i felt the earthquake side effect which the office is kind of bergegar and it scares the hell out of me. trus pack2 balik and tgk news, there's an earthquake in Nothern Sumatera with 7.8 magnitude. quite huge. and i dont know if there's any kematian or what.

#2

i need to reformat my office laptop to the new, simplified Windows 7 but there's an issue. i have lotsssss of things in my laptop and im sooo lazy to arrange everything and to back it up and to have it copied back to the laptop. what if ade file2 important yang hilang ke apa ke? cewah. alasan je semua tu. hahahahaha. so lets do a housekeeping to remove all the duplicate files and pictures and everything.

#3

there's a kayak activity this weekend. on sunday exactly. but im still thinking whether to join or not. might be going for a wall climbing ths saturday. it's been a while since i climb. haha.

#4

have to send my parents to lcct. they are going back to kelantan this friday to ziarah my auntie who just lost his husband few weeks ago. i wish i could join, tapi tu ah, kerja. :D

#5

went to UTP last week. semua yang di plan tak menjadi. because of the weather. last2 duk kat UTP je. but its okay. i had fun. i went to Top 1, this western restaurant that have the most delicious cheese cake and the food also is not that bad, went to the famous batu gajah karoke for two days in a row. hahahaha, went to selasih mamak, and had the cheese nan and tandoori chicken. the cheese nan is still fabulous but the tandoori is not that good anymore. ouh, ameeth! hahaha. ordered maggi goreng, and didn't finished it up. not really in the mood to indulge the maggi goreng. how i love utp and people in it. :D

#6

the day that i wanted to settled my hutang with UTP, time tu la all the atm machines is not working. i went to Taman Maju, all the atms and petrol station, semua Out Of Service. whattt the. so last option, i drove to batu gajah, which was quite far, not that far but bila dah lmbat, rasa mcm jauh la, nk kejar office hour lagi, takut Finance tutup. last2 i made it to the Finance counter just to find out that they have this machine yang boleh guna ATM card tu. i was like, whatt??? berpenat lelah i drove to batu gajah and buat tawaf kat Taman Maju, rupa2 nya i can simply go to Finance and give them my atm cards. what a day. aiyooooo. tapiiiii, at the end i got my transcript and my degree cert! hahaha. orang lain dah berkurun dpt. tu ah, sape suruh kena saman smp ratus2. pffffft.

practice makes perfect.

alia said: baby, u supposed to be sad. its normal to be sad. mmg la sedih tapi lama2 okayla. u'll get used to it.
i said: practice makes perfect kan? i have to try.

senn said: kita tau, awak tak biasa, tapi kenala biasakan.
i said: practice makes perfect. kita try okay.

nad said: ape tah nad kata. lupa dah. hahahahaha

but the main point is, i have to practice.from now onwards. tak kesahla berapa lama pun kena practice, lama2 biasalah tu. as for me, experience is the best teacher. let me try to live with that. :)
thank you babiesss. hahahaha.

yes i dont wanna know about that, but i do listen.

seriously. you pissed me off. i dont know what happened to you that you have to cut me off everytime im in the middle of telling stories or ranting about things that happened or singing or whatever shit that i always do, and said 'stop, i dont wanna know about that', 'do you think im interested to hear your story?', 'hmmm, takpela, aku taknak dengar..' whatt the?

but when its yourrrr turn to tell stories, i just cant help it but to hear every single word you said, not because im interested, its because u asked me to listen to you, and it is what people would do when someone is telling stories or ranting about a bad day, yes, LISTEN. and its not my nature to abaikan orang ckp sorang.. thats just me. so please, dont do that. i hate that. just listen. tak kesahla kau nk buat muka bosan gila nk mati ke apa ke, i dont mind as long as you dont go 'kau rasa aku nk dgr ke cerita kau?'.. aku tak suka. benci ah.hmm, bukan benci, sakit hati sebenarnya. pffftttt.